Last night was horrible. Sanjay was working upstairs in our office and after almost passing out on my way up the stairs, I opened the door and without saying anything Sanjay immediately came to hug me and tell me I didn't look good (he really meant he was concerned) as he led me to a chair to sit down. Rocking back and forth in stomach pain we were deciding whether or not to go to the hospital when I said "I'll be right back". I went downstairs and forced myself to 'get a little sick' (for the first time during this pregnancy). It was the only way to relieve a little of the pain. Just as I began to feel alone and helpless with tears burning down my face, I felt a loving arm wrap around me and I fell into Sanjay's arms, my back against his chest, as he comforted me and held me on the Cold Bathroom Floor.
As I was all tucked into bed I couldn't help but think about two friends and a stranger; Alissa, Sarah. and Liz (fictitious name). I thought about Alissa because she has been so strong through her pregnancy. Due to work circumstances, Alissa and her boyfriend can not be together until after the baby is born. She lives away from her parents and my heart goes out to her. I then thought about another friend of mine, Alissa's best friend Sarah, and wondered what is was like for her when her husband had no other choice but to travel for work. I bet there were times she needed comforted and felt alone as she too was far from her parents. My mind then raced to a teenage tiny little pregnant girl who I had seen while I was teaching at Lincoln West. She always had a look of fear in her eyes. Does she have any support at all? I wonder if any of these girls have ever had one of those Cold Bathroom Floor moments and had to face them alone.
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You are so fortunate to have Sanjay to comfort and watch over you. He is a good husband and I know will be a good daddy too!
Hang in there Nicole, I know it is not easy.
Mom C
sometimes throwing up does make you feel better:) That is great that Sanjay is always there for you. Your little one is so fortunate to have such in love parents. just a little bit longer and you will be feeling better. Erin
Ok, I remember the days of throwing up to feel better but that was after a long night of drinking! I hope you are feeling better. I miss you guys. Wish I was closer to help out more. Know I am thinking of you and your family!
Katie
I am glad Sanjay was there to comfort you and help you. He is a good man! I really hope you start to feel better soon!
I am crying right now as I have just read your last post! I'm so sorry you are having SUCH a hard time sweetie! Just remember, it WILL get better and I am SO happy that Sanjay is there to support you! Hang in there!!!!! I'm thinking of you all the time!
I know Im reading this a little late, but I hope your feeling a little better! Your so lucky to have Sanjay there with you to support you through all of this. Its not easy being pregnant!!! The 2 of you will be such wonderful parents!!
Sarah
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